20 Years For Nothing

by Blind Ambition

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1.
Sadder Day 03:33
Nothing's as it seems Illusive minds, false dreams Life is over rated Death is exaggerated To bitter to consider thoughts of others around Anxiously awaiting, thoughtlessly put down In a world without feeling I still taste, eat and breath You made the rules for the game Just use and through away Come out and play Pretend to mean what you say Open feelings, empty arms I've lost the will, life's lost it's charm Can't think about tomorrow Can't change yesterday You can't plan the future You're stuck in this minute today You thought I was more than what I am. I'll leave with you on my mind And you'll be by his side It's not like suicide It's escaping all the lies
2.
The Bottle 03:22
I don't want this life but I live with it You don't think I try but I do what I can I've tried other ways but I slip and I fall I've tried to change but I don't change at all And your waiting for something that will never come So you sit in the bathtub with your bottle of rum Lying in bed I though i'd seen everything But I can't describe the look on your face I dropped to my knees as you fell to the floor I'm sorry you saw there's nothing I live for
3.
I'm never happy, is it good enough? Should I try harder? should I just give up? I think it's my best but does anyone care? If you can't see it is it really there? I'm sorry, all I do is complain I'm sorry, i'm sure it's getting pretty lame Trying to stay focused... It takes up so much of my time Just make sure you are senceer And find more reasons to be here
4.
I woke up this morning Found out that you were gone I waited for answers To find there were none Over and over You could drink yourself sober This isn't a dream It's as bad as it seems I woke up this morning I know that you are gone I looked in the mirror I know that this is wrong Over and over I keep asking why Your sweet loving daughter That sweet love has died So it's over, this is real Can somebody tell me how to feel I sit here going over my life I sit here because i'm alive
5.
I've seen it all before You scream than slam the door The echoing of I don't think I love you anymore Lets try to get along Where did we go so wrong? I know it's hard but I'll let you know that I loved you all along Please don't let go Please don't give up I'm still still to young I'll grow and show you that I understan I've seen it all before And I don't want to see no more We can work it out and try our best and see what we have in store
6.
Myself Away 02:16
Over seas of rolling eyes and I'll wait my turn Over seas and the reddest wines and This rooms never been such a bore Through myself away Over see the obvious and Don't dwell on the past I'll try to smile but No promises i'll do it just fine I can't find me, Can you find me?
7.
Letting Go 03:57
Once again I have nothing to say Try to make it through another day Sometimes I feel as though I want to break down and know why All you do and all you say is turning me away Want to sleep and bottle up inside All the things I have still managed to hide Now I think I know why I don't want to sing about Me, myself and I, It feels like such a lie Now I know it's time to change Time to grow up and turn the page Afraid to wake up and feel like yesterday Further away from the things that make me stay So now I feel as though I can go I'm moving on from a life that held me down Good-bye, I won't be around I'm moving on, I'm letting go Where to from here? I don't know
8.
I can't express the way I feel these days Can't relate to my own words, I've changed my ways See me now, I'll start over See me now, This is something new See me now, I was just like you See me now, This much is true It opened up my eyes, this life we lived It's more good than bad, you get what you give Keep holding on I know it's long Try to stay strong Now the feelings gone
9.
84% Lies 02:25
My mind, it consists of nothing But bad thoughts that never seem to get me far The things I've learned and bridges that I've seemed to burn I know you know I never had a chance All my favorite bands are dead Some let it all go to their head Some miss the comfort in being sad Some thought that nothing was all they had Time stops the moment you realize Growing up was 84% lies We're always searching for what's wrong But what you had is now gone
10.
Petty Layne 02:32
I long to be alone in the company of my own self pity I have run out of things to say and I have run out of songs to play Cant you see I can't save me I can't save me
11.
Dear World: 02:02
I close my eyes and fall asleep Dream that I fall to deep And when I wake with broken dreams This is my life or so it seems Every time I look around Everything is broken down Could you take my thoughts away And everything would be ok I'm watching the time and counting the days Hoping i'll find what you've thrown away I wish I could live through children's eyes Loving the world and loving blue skies
12.
Since the winter came you through it all away Everything has turned grey and i'm not ok You could never see through me, as blind as I can be You would always hand it out and know without a doubt Your falling out of my life Your falling out of me. You would always walk the line and get hurt every time How much will you give and still have will to live Turn the world on me, wash away and see Did you always feel like dirt or get use to the hurt
13.
I dont feel like that Im just waiting to die Sorry, I don't feel that way I wish I didn't wake up today Im asleep Drag the water Drag my dreams I'm asleep I'm not coming back From all these pills i've taken now Sorry, I threw it all away I'm sorry i'm dead, I'm sorry i'm gay
14.
You can never forget And you can't forgive I wont say i'm lonely But it's getting harder to live Now your waving good-bye You said i'm always behind Your tired of waiting in line So now your waving good-bye All the things i've noticed From falling behind With the window open I'm starting to die
15.
Go Away 02:08
Go away I've had enough of your face Go away I can't explain your lazy ways Go away Before I change your display Go away
16.
In Time 03:32
Everything is wrong inside you But everything is right where it belongs Even in your darkest hours You can't take you from them, they're everything You think that they will forget about you in time But they will always have you on their mind Please don't wonder what you could have done Just remember the times, the times when we had fun It's all you have to hold on to It's not meant to be easy You have thrown the flowers on the floor People walk around not caring anymore Even if you say it matters to you They'll pretend to care but it's still only you I'm awake, can't sleep today I'll rest my eyes, life stops in time
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18.
Fade 03:07
With the upset stomach you can't feed The fortune cookie you can't believe I never wanted to be such a bore And I can't live this life anymore Sometimes it's hard to laugh When you know you're fading fast And nothing seems to last At all My life is yesterday replayed When you're nothing you can't fade Black is only a shade Make it a colour so I can' fade With the deranged image in the mirror I'm not afraid to shed a tear I'd crack a smile but i'm to sore My bodies headed for the floor Sometimes it's hard to laugh When inocents is the past And nothing seems to last It falls
19.
I Forgot 04:12
Just another day Nothing has changed It hurts so bad I can't control me It makes me sad but life is temporary So I turned and softly whispered I need something else to pass the time This life I live is contradicting And I believe that I never wanted any of it Out of reach are things I want but yet not What do I want, I can't concentrate I forgot It's hard to find happiness when you forget what it is It's hard to lose loneliness when that's all that there is
20.
Bitter 05:01
I tried to change what this would say But it always comes out in a bitter way All of the pain, see the ways I'll fall down but whatever it takes To lay down, still alone See the stars in the night sky See them shine, feel me cry, feel me die I walk away everyday See my work turn dark shades of grey All of you can see the way But I wait for the end of today To lay down, still alone See the stars in the night sky See them shine, feel me cry, feel me die and that's all I'm not here Leave a message at the tone

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This is a collection of songs that have been recorded over the last 20 years. They may not be the best songs or the best recordings but they are songs that were written and recorded with as much passion as you can put into music while learning and growing. CD's are available for $10

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released August 7, 2018

Mark LaJoie - Tracks 1-20
Alex Maltby - Tracks 5-6 & 12-14
Cory Stephens - Tracks 1 & 10
Matt Harrison - Tracks 1 & 10
Mark Meeks - Track 18

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Blind Ambition Peterborough, Ontario

Blind Ambition is an alternative rock band that has been playing shows in and around Eastern Ontario since 1998. We strive on our live shows and incorporate the powerful elements of Rock and Roll into our songs.

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